Making Lists

Here are all the things that are unclear:

  1. I do not know where I will be teaching next year.
  2. I do not know what I will be teaching next year.
  3. I do not know how I will be teaching next year (because I do not know what I will be teaching).
  4. I do not know how to pack up my classroom (because I do not know where I will be teaching next year).
  5. I do not know how to reflect on a year of pandemic teaching…and I don’t know how to not reflect on my teaching.
  6. I do not know how to revisit successful lessons and make them better, when I don’t know where or what or how I will be teaching.
  7. I do not know how to reimagine failed lessons, when I don’t know where or what or how I will be teaching.
  8. I do not know what to do with my books.
  9. I do not know what to do with my books.
  10. I do not know how to envision my twentieth year of teaching.

Here are the things that are clear:

  1. My school is changing our English Language Arts program.
  2. The important details are unclear, but it is clear that they are changing and shifting and redefining.
  3. They are primarily focused on roles and schedules, not curricula and pedagogy.
  4. My school is changing our master schedule, which likely drove the change to our ELA program.
  5. The important details are unclear, but it is clear that they are changing and shifting and redefining.
  6. They are primarily focused on big picture issues, not pesky details that have the potential to derail the entire endeavor.
  7. My school is undergoing a major capital project, demolishing three-quarters of our building over the next two years.
  8. The important details are unclear, but it is clear that they are changing and shifting and redefining.
  9. They are primarily focused on moving forward in a time when maybe it would be better to pause.
  10. They are administrators, not teachers and definitely not students.

What to do with uncertainty:

  1. Breathe.
  2. Let go.
  3. Focus on what is in my control.
  4. Consider possibilities.
  5. Find moments of positivity.
  6. Laugh at the absurdity.
  7. Allow for sadness.
  8. Keep an open mind.
  9. Let go.
  10. Breathe.

3 thoughts on “Making Lists

  1. Oh, I feel your angst. Change, especially change over which we have no say, no input (although I dare say yours would be very valuable – twenty years a teacher!).I love your lists and felt so hopeful for you as a teacher and human when I read your last list. Each one of those tips for dealing with uncertainty is so perfect. You are going to be okay. Breathe.

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  2. It sounds like a tough an heart breaking time, when the authorities are not acting in the interests of teachers and students (from the sound of things). I’m glad you can pause and relax and I hope it all becomes clear soon.

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  3. Truly amazing!! I,also have lists but no definitive answers for my students except to hope for further searching for the right, fun-filled, engaging music to learn. other goals to search out will be taking a LOT of time because there are so many choices. Love, mom

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